One of the things that is challenging in my life surround the whole idea of being real. We are supposed to be real, not fake. Especially as a Pastor, I am supposed to set the example of being real for others. But that is a challenge because there is also pressure placed upon me as a pastor to be strong and set the example of someone who "has it all together."
Most days I find myself in a dilemma of how to do both of these things at the same time? How can I be strong and set the example of someone who has it all together while also being real - especially when I am struggling? And, I often find myself asking the question as well, "Who can I be real with?"
There are times that I want to share with those in my congregation that I am close to what is really going on in my life, or how I am really feeling, but then feel that pressure on the other side that makes it so I do not feel the freedom to be vulnerable. And so I find myself a lot of times feeling alone, lonely, and not able to share what is the "true" me.
Not sure what to even do with this... but decided to share this anyway... for whatever it is worth.
For anyone else who is in ministry... how do you balance these two things? What do you do? Who do you share with, and how much do you share? My inquiring mind wants to know!